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Mrs. Kim Sunggyu
30 June 2014 @ 12:32 am
I'm actually really disappointed in you, my best friend A. Didn't we promise to walk with EXO forever? Why are you leaving? Just because Kris left? Is your loyalty to the fandom that petty? I never said anything to you because I fear for our friendship (which is pretty tight) but I'm really, really, really disappointed. For me, even if Jongdae leaves, I'll still support and follow EXO. Jongdae may be the reason I came to this fandom, but all the members made me stay. Why cant you pull the same thing for all the other members? I admit, I may be angry at Yifan, but that doesn't mean I don't wish him happiness. If he's happy acting now, then I wish him good luck and be healthy. I never hold that against him.
Mrs. Kim Sunggyu
30 June 2014 @ 12:13 am
So hay. I've been neglecting this since forever now orz sorry. I havent written in formal English for a long time now, ((well, not THAT long, I just finished my MUET exams like 2 months ago)) but because I spend the majority of my times on Twitter and Tumblr, I'm used to short forms and internet lingo >___>

Sooooo yeah.My last post was about me hesitating between two choices, either Bachelor of Medical Imaging in KPJUC, or Bachelor of Professional Communications at IUMW. I ended up choosing KPJUC, just because it promises me a stable job. I may be stubborn, but even I couldn't deny that this course will have a bigger percentage of me getting a job straight away. I'm still not happy, but I have forced myself to accept it.

Actually, I didnt choose it. I never had a chance to choose. My dad basically chose it for me. He said, really clearly; "It's my money, not yours. You will get into the course I've chosen." I couldn't even begin to describe the pain I felt at that moment. In the beginning, he acted like he really handed the decision to me, you know. But when I got the offer letters of both the courses, he began urging me to accept KPJUC's. It was a gentle nudge at first, but as the date to respond to the letters came closer, he was blatantly shoving IUMW's aside. I just...... feel kind of betrayed, you know? I really believed he'll give me a choice.....

Sometimes, I'm really amazed at my face. (No, not that "I'm actually pretty!!!" thing) I mean, my ability to hide behind my smile. When my dad said that sentence earlier, I didn't show anything on face. But my heart was breaking on the inside.
Mrs. Kim Sunggyu
16 March 2014 @ 11:07 pm
I don't know what to do. Should I follow my heart or head? Should I take a course that I've dreamt of my whole life, or a course that promises a stable work and pay?

I'm so lost.
Mrs. Kim Sunggyu
12 February 2014 @ 01:28 pm
I'm confused.

Sometimes, I'll just be this big ball of positivity and sunshine, other times I'll be wallowing in the corner in my own self-pity and anguish.

What am I even
Mrs. Kim Sunggyu
27 January 2014 @ 01:05 pm
I really, really hope KPJ will get back to me soon. Every single day I spend home, I seem to get more and more depressed. Even though I'll miss my siblings, my parents have made it very clear they want me out of the house. Well, my father, at least.